Sing Yen ♥

2008-05-26T23:40:00.002+10:00

some quick updates on my life:

1) im finally (yes, finally) attached. i mean, we're finally official after 6 mths of unofficial.

2) mummy just got me a mac. im totally psyched. the cool thing is.. nick, jasmine, bryan and i all have mac. we can ichat! (: oh yes, i was talking to jasmine on the phone few nights ago.. and she said i should go learnt dota. then all four of us can bring our macs out and dota together at soe cafe. haha.

3) oh yes, mummy got me a fendi bag for my 18th! haha. even though it's like 4 mths away. but anyway, it's just for the moment. (: heehee.

4) ohh, italy was... not as good as i thought i would be. i fcking hell quarelled with dad and i actually sprained my ankle on the very first day when i was at venice.

so yep, that's about it.

oh gosh, 1 mth and 2 weeks to melb. sigh.

2007-09-23T16:59:00.000+10:00

hey love, even though we're thousand miles apart, i want to let you know that i'm always here for you. i don't know what exactly happened and i'm really afraid to ask you so. however, you should know, this is a part and parcel of life. be strong love. (:

2007-09-22T13:42:00.000+10:00

I WANT TO DIE LIAO LAH, SERIOUSLY.
my nose is killing me. someone, save me!

anyway, i had a weird dream last night. cause i dreamt of someone that i didn't dream for a really long time.

phantom tonight! (:

2007-09-21T19:49:00.000+10:00

(the sniffs, sneezes and teary eyes continue..)
i find myself glued in front of my laptop again. i just couldn't concentrate. i need Your strength and wisdom.

parent's wedding anniversary is round the corner. this is the least i can do for them (a picture that i took during free time and i need photoshop!) love you mum and dad (:

2007-09-21T14:04:00.001+10:00

so haoyu and rayner flew off today. mel ended his physics paper two hours ago. here i am eating my overnight fried rice all alone at home. one word, pathetic.

jas called twenty minutes ago. hurhur. i bet that women misses me! (jasmine if you're reading this, don't deny that you don't!)

i almost couldn't speak a word when i woke up earlier this morning. my sore throat is killing me. oh, yellowish green mucus, welcome back! have a good time laying your nest in my nose. gosh. i need my mummy! ):

:| (expression 1)
:) (expression 1.5)
:D (expression 2)

plans tonight are canceled by the way. all thanks to my flu.
oh oh oh, i've got the sickness and you've got the cure.

can't wait to watch phantom tomorrow! and hopefully, i'll feel better.

2007-09-20T21:34:00.000+10:00

4 words, i am really bored.

2007-09-20T16:50:00.000+10:00

im down with flu (again) despite taking a flu jab just a few days ago. how sucky can life be now. im really trying my best to concentrate studying, but every time i open up my math book, there i go..yawwnnnnnn

anyways, jas is back in singapore, bet she's having fun now. haoyu and mel will be back in two days' time. party is their word, whereas mug is mine. i've really got to drill the word 'STUDY' in my head.

-

yes, im really glad to see everyone's fine here in melbourne, especially siyue (!) my accounting partner. was down at city yesterday afternoon and someone suddenly hugged me from the back. oh well, it was her! haha. such coincidence!

life's pretty boring. sometimes, it actually made me wondering what's going on in my head. i mean, im actually thinking what im thinking at that instance. ah, nevermind, i don't understand also. as what rayner says, i've only got three expressions.

2007-09-18T02:11:00.001+10:00

love you huimin (:

2007-09-17T01:40:00.000+10:00

seafood platter, ah lian tendencies, balcony, sex on the beach, lychee martini and nonstop chats. thanks alot for the wonderful night my dear. i know, you're the best.

2007-09-15T17:56:00.000+10:00

omg, i can't believe that i actually found vodka peach, vodka pear, bacardi 151 and bacardi lemon at the wine celler at home.
resist, singyen.

2007-09-15T15:52:00.000+10:00

three more days back, i really can't wait for it.
when i say i miss you, i really do.

2007-09-14T13:00:00.000+10:00

singyen misses melbourne,
singyen misses everyone back in melbourne, really.

Mina have mailed early this morning to inform me about my rescheduled exams. seriously, i am in need of concentration. it would be a selfish thought if i say this trip back to singapore was a blessing in disguise. God took a love one away from me, but he gave me more time to study. term four will really be a tough period of time for me. i really need to get prepared to start my mugging period again. it's another crucial time for me. i remembered telling dad that i may choose monash over melbourne uni the other night. a one word answer from him, a n-o, no. i tried to discuss about the courses that monash offers but he just told me straight on my face, "singyen, your purpose is to get into melbourne uni and not monash. monash is lousy." and i kept quiet at that instance.

anyway, you've disappointed me friend.

2007-09-12T01:00:00.001+10:00

to lim yu jia,

p.s, i love you! (:

2007-09-11T13:41:00.000+10:00

i woke up this morning just to realise that im back at home again. no irritating tram noise to wake me up from my sleep once again. was talking to mum a moment ago. she's going to change my return flight and book her flight too. she will be following me back to melbourne this time round. alright, i've got to study my ass off now and get to grandma's wake later in the evening.

2007-09-11T01:22:00.000+10:00

im back. back to this familiar place called home. headed straight to grandma's wake at clementi after arriving at changi airport. seems like everyone are trying their very best to put up a strong front. im feeling exhausted, both mentally and physically. there's just so much things to be done. i've got to settle my examination administrative stuff as soon as possible. adding on to it, i need to try my very best to stay focus on my studies.

singyen misses you.

2007-09-06T23:16:00.000+10:00

im feeling extremely fucked up now. just had a conversation with mum a moment ago. i saw myself breaking down at the instance when she said grandma is back in icu and it's a 50-50 percent that she's going survive through this month. im left with no choice but to force myself back to singapore for a week during term break. 19th to 26th, just in time to be back for GIMU. those are just tentative dates, tickets are not even booked yet.

adding on to it, dad said he've forgotten to transfer money to my bank. im seriously broke. what can i actually do when i only have less than 10 dollars in my account? i feel really bad that i kept asking jasmine for money. sorry jas.

fucked up. i hate to have this feeling again. it's just two years back that i've lost a love one. i really don't want to go through such a thing again. it's terrible, tiring and distressing. please, people, pray for me if you can. i really need help.

all the best for singping's exam tomorrow by the way.

2007-09-06T10:40:00.001+10:00

birthday's in a weeks' time. to be honest, i can't wait for it. i mean, being 17 is sex. haha. oh well. hey, i actually shouldn't have said that cause you can do whatever you want if you're 15 in Australia.

i was reading my friend's blog just a moment ago. her words somehow brought me back to the past. relationships are just parts and parcel of life. seriously speaking, first love will never be forgotten. i know, it's really time to move on. i don't want to dwell in the past anymore. it's for real this time. (i've already dump all the pictures and the stuff he gave aside by the way). so anyway, i know it's early, but i've made some resolutions for being 17.

1) mug my ass off for melbourne uni no matter what.
2) grow more in my spiritual life. (nothing compares to you my God.)
3) really, forgive and forget.

there's just so many things that i want to pamper myself on my birthday. retail therapy and shisha at lygon! i can't wait for it! (:

life's all well (putting exams aside). actually, mum have been persuading me to get my ass back to singapore during my term break. to tell you the truth, i really don't want to. i don't history to repeat itself. furthermore, i've so much things to do. accounting assignment, accounting essay, eap speaking task and many many more. it's time for me to mug too.

cheerios people, im happy, really.

2007-09-03T19:26:00.000+10:00

doesn't matter what i do now
doesn't matter what i say
somewhere in my heart
im always
dancing with you in the summer rain.

im longing for the coldness to go away, seriously. i almost freeze to death on my trip to safeway at 11.30pm last night. oh my goodness, im in need of the sun. i was so tired this afternoon that i fell asleep during lit tutorial. all the best singyen.

anyway, facebook is fun. hahahahha. im such a noooooob.

2007-09-03T00:43:00.000+10:00

omg shit. it just strucked me that it's only two weeks away from exams. im so dead for it this time.

anyway, i finally cleaned up my shitsmelling house.

cupcakecupcakecupcakecupcakecupcakecupcake. omg, don't tell me that im obsessed. shitass.

2007-09-02T14:25:00.000+10:00

cupcake!

2007-09-01T22:02:00.000+10:00

it seems like both of us have really distant.
friend, i love you anyway.

2007-09-01T19:08:00.000+10:00

Medeka - 30/8

jasmine, singyen, aza

singyen, aza

i really look disgusting

singyen, aza, jasmine

imran, singyen

ryan, akil

jasmine, aishah

rayner

2007-08-29T23:35:00.000+10:00

im finally done and over with fcked up/knnbccb freud essay. it's after HOI for me y'all. singyen can sleep as long as she wants already! she's no longer sleep-deprived!

wednesday - day full of random shit.

2007-08-28T23:20:00.005+10:00

i can't believe i drank a can of V, ate a packet of slat&vinegar chips and many many pieces of chocolates. late night binging makes me fat, but that's how i make myself awake. it's 11.20 now. im still working on my hoi. i promise myself not to get my ass on bed until i finish up my essay. this is seriously distressing. someone, save me.

aye, i miss you love.

2007-08-27T22:27:00.001+10:00

i suck. i seriously suck big time. okay not that i blow too. but anyways, im stuck with my first 500 words of my essay. hey, on a lighter note, im 1/3 done with it. hawhaw. im feeling sleepy despite drinking a cup of coffee earlier on. it seems like caffine seriously doesn't work on me anymore. i shall smoke then. as what ken told jasmine last night, smoking makes you feel awake. hehehehe (im going nuts), but buy me a coffin before i take my very first puff. i've got weak lungs and bronchitis mind you.

sad to say, last night was pretty unproductive.

tuesday tomorrow. im so not looking forward to it (singyen shall stop typing like a bimbo). cause i know, i'll be feeling dead (tired).

omg, i don't want to procrastinate.

i miss my bed even though it's just beside me now.

SCREAMS.

2007-08-26T23:27:00.000+10:00

red bull is no cool. alright, i had a can of it and it's not working for me at all. i dread to say this but im feeling tired. shitass. no way singyen is getting into bed tonight. she have to do her hoi! anyway, i spend my entire day at aza's place with ken, jasmine, mary and obviously aza. from mambo to safeway to dinner to american next top model to australia idol (SUPPORT MATT CODY/COBY! HE'S SO DAMN CUTE!) to cracking back to buffing nails and finally to reading hoi notes. jasmine's staying over at aza's place tonight. im still thinking if i should stay up the whole night doing my essay with aza and ken. oh wells.

anyway, it seems like some people have been stalking my blog.

2007-08-26T11:07:00.000+10:00

it sucks that cs apartments' walls are thin.

Baby just say goodnight
I'll be gone tomorrow
Baby just close your eyes
I can't take the sorrow
Baby just walk away
You know I can't stay
There's no easy way to say goodbye
So baby just say goodnight

2007-08-25T21:24:00.000+10:00

spring is definitely here! woots! okay, God, just don't give me false hopes again. the temperature went up to 21 degrees this afternoon, one of the highest temperature ever since i came to melbourne. it was freaking hoooooooooooooot. guess what, i wore my cardigan and shots out today. anyways, went to jiahui's goodbye girl (a musical) with fellow churchies this afternoon. it was awesome (though the jokes were cheesy and corny, but hey, that should be the way isn't it? hawhaw). so yeah, chuck&larry-ed with jasmine last night. the movie was damn freaking funny i tell you.

ah, the past few nights were like rollarcoaster rides for me (not just because of my stupid coughs and block-ed nose).
so yeah anyway, it's 9.30 already, time for shitass hoi.

hat i want you here tonight
and i need you by my side
for one more moment
just one more moment, with you

2007-08-25T18:42:00.000+10:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIA, MY DEAREST CONE! LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUU! (:

2007-08-23T20:31:00.011+10:00

i've got a lianish factor y'all

was surfing through friendster and my eyes somehow rested upon this..(a comment in love's friend's profile)
huhs.? -.-"
iie still das same.
iie where pretty siia.
cux ur didi soo long nvb see miie lerhs:X
lalas. biao jie den pretty.
yapps.. we lyk yrs nvb see each oth lerhs.
gort miss miie.? haas.
kaiires kaiires.

omg. extreme typicalsingaporeanlian. im feeling d-i-s-g-u-s-t-e-d.

okay, i neeeeed to get back to hoi, NOW!

baoo beiix, iie miss euu dee worrxx. (OH GOSH)

2007-08-23T12:02:00.000+10:00

milk and cereal for breakfast

it have been a few mornings that i woke up finding myself sleeping beside a bin full of tissues. (continue the sniffs, sneezes and blows)
i think im seriously in need of rest. alright, here it goes again..i've regretted not appreciating that three days MC that dr patrick have gave me. i should have just stayed at home all day hoi-ing or lying on bed to rest. Oh Lord, give me the strength to recover! (as my maths tutor babara have reminded the class yesterday) exams are just in THREE WEEKS' TIME. im finding myself in a shitty situation now.

last night was pretty productive though. i revised maths 1a (like finally)! more intergration intergration intergration and intergration. let u be this, d u d x. oh, whatever. typing d u d x brings me back to a maths periods. oh gosh, i miss mdm nurlaila. teachers day is coming people. dearest 4a, please get your ass back to queenstown to visit our teachers!

anyway, it's thursday mind you but im dreading to go to school.

from long bus rides to walks in rain, it is our memory.

2007-08-22T14:13:00.000+10:00

china man's bad breath

it's twentysecond august, HAPPY BIRTHDAAAAYYY MY DEAREST EUN YEOOOOOOO ♥ ! aye, stupid gabby ruined everything. ): i wanted to surprise you okays! anyway, you're dearly missed (not forgetting the rest too)!

so yes, this wednesday started as usuaul, perhaps just with more coughs and less block nose than yesterday. nonetheless, the disgusting yellowgreenish mucus still remain. maths two lecture this morning was pretty fun. it's on projectile moition by the the way. call me strange and a man y'all (like how my tuition teacher, juliana, goes on saying, "you're funny. i bet you have more male hormones than the rest of the famales cause you love physics..."). so yeah, my love for science still continues even though my subjects are all mathematics based. mentioning about this reminds me on university application. yeah, man, i somehow regretted not taking up chemistry. i'll definitely give a go for science faculty if im qualified. but sigh, i don't take any of the prerequisites. sad case singyen.

so yes, back to china man's bad breath. was sitting next to this guy during maths two lect. sorry to say that his bad breath was overwhelming. it was so overwhelming that the stinky smelling air can penertrate through my blocked nose. okay, say that im mean. it's not as if you have nice smelling breath singyen..

-

mag and i headed down to fsc during lunch, after literature lecture. we've got our extentsion. rejoice people! essay's due on wednesday for me, thursday for stupid ass mag (just joking!). hpmh.

so yes, today have been good for me so far. maths tutorial later! miss joking with mag and elvis!

i'll need you, my superman.
love, you're dearly missed, always will.

backtohoisingyen ):

2007-08-21T17:28:00.000+10:00

Shit happens.

I went to school today despite having a MC for three effing days. Accounting lecture was pretty much useless this morning. I should have listen to Siyue and REST at home. Okay, my fever's finally down after lying on my bed for the past two days, literally. But my nose definitely remained annoying. Gosh, i felt like dying this morning. I sneezed and coughed out mucus/flam which is yellowish green. Okay, extra info, i know you won't want to know. Anyway, congee from ricebar this afternoon was terrible. It tasted like water and im not joking.

Two weeks to drama performance exam, one month to term three exams (& his promos), one month and one week to perth trip and several more months back to singapore.

I miss the familiar smell of home.

2007-08-20T09:55:00.000+10:00

Last night was full of mucus and tissue. Good job done Singyen, you're down with fever and flu when HOI essay is due in 5 days' time! I'll most likely request for an extention again i guess.

chocolates really do release happy hormones.my hands are typing faster than my brain’s processing. good no?
oh and ‘m probably quite horny too because sam says they release some –inserts biology alien word, no worries singyen still has her clothes on. (crap,did I just typed that? No I didn’t. I must be seeing things) HAHA
-jraechan.lj

idiot jasmine.

2007-08-16T21:04:00.000+10:00

Bumps in life

Stress is climbing up my head now. I should be feeling relieve despite the fact that my essays are going to be done soon. But, nope, im not.

Had a chat with mum just now, i can't believe she actually kept so many things from me.

Updates from home:
1) Thank God Sing Wei's recovering from his disc operation.
2) Granny just came out from ICU.
3) Grandpa have been coughing out blood for the past few days.

It was just few days back that i had a really bad dream that grandpa passed away (signs of bad omen). People, please pray for my family.

2007-08-15T17:35:00.000+10:00

Im tuning to the i-don't-know-what-i-am-doing mood now.
Just feeling so sianded with life now.

Okay, several things to be done later.
1)Cook dinner ):
2)Finish up EAP essay
3)HOI HOI HOI
4)Mail love.

Gosh, someone, please give me motivation to get on track with my work.

Dinner with singapore neighbours (william, olivia and her husband) tomorrow night.

It's Thursday tomorrow. I used to be anticipating for every Thursday, but not now. Cause there's maths tutorial on the first period! On a lighter note, there's no point complaining about it already cause it's the finally week of maths 1A! Seriously, it's something to be rejoiceful for! Maths lecture will return to the same venue and yes, with the same old clique.

Don't slip away from my fingers....

2007-08-14T17:41:00.000+10:00

Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi

2007-08-14T16:40:00.001+10:00

Hello world.
It sucks to be the middle person.

I need caffine to boost up my energy.

Your voice is the soundtrack of my summer
Loves, dearly missed.

2007-08-13T21:56:00.000+10:00

"So how long have you been together with your boyfriend?"

I paused. I was speechless at that moment. I really didn't know what to say.
It's two and a half years actually. 30 months since 11 february 2005.

"I'll be with you from the beginning till the very end...."
A friend of mine sang as he played the keyboard.

2007-08-13T12:58:00.000+10:00

Seriously, blame it on Global Warming. Gosh, it's getting colder again. It's only a few days back when you can actually spot people wearing just tanktops walking around school. But today, it's another way. It's so cold till the condensation of our (bad) breadthes are back (in other words, there's "smoke" when we breathe or talk). A cup of hot chocolate during change of class is essential.

Had a 11 hour sleep last night. Unfortunately, i didn't feel that my batteries are rechaged at all. Oh God, i still feel like plucking out my nose. It's so irritating.

Anyway, even though it's three minutes, a call from love back home last night was definitely heart warming.

2007-08-11T16:36:00.000+10:00

It's 11th again.
It's you i miss tonight, baby.

2007-08-10T23:50:00.000+10:00

I wonder how life would be if i was smarter enough.
I wonder how life would be if i was able to get into my dream school, sajc.
I wonder how life would be if i stayed in cjc with t35.
I wonder how life would be if i wasn't as naive as before.
I wonder how life would be if i've transferred to crescent when i was sec2.

2007-08-10T20:50:00.000+10:00

It was just a week ago when i made my choice to break all strings attached to him. But yet, today, not once but many times that i opened my mouth and subconsciously talked about him to jasmine. I really have no idea what's happening to both of us. I mean what's really going on between us. My singapore phone was ringing while i was out this afternoon and it was him.

Hey baby, why?

forward, backward, inwards, outwards, near, far...

Anyway, it was this close of getting to know mr meltmelt today.

While i was with melvin waiting for kristi...
R: Eh hi!
Me: oh helloooooooooooo.

While i was downstairs with jasmine, melvin, haoyu and twins...
R: Hello!
Me: heyyyyyy!

Omg singyen.
Mr meltmelt is just meltmelt. I swear i wasn't as crazy as before.

2007-08-09T23:50:00.001+10:00

9th August, it didn't turn out as good as i've expected.
I'm down with flu and i've got a super painful headache which feels as if something is drilling into my head.

Anyway, the steamboat turned out well and the company (jasmine, melvin, haoyu, aza and dulcie) was definitely good. stupid stuff we did, nothing unsual from us. We didn't have the chance to watch ndp live through the net though.

It somehow hit me last night when Sing Ping have changed his msn nickname to "marikita rak-yat Singapura sama sama menuju...". I have never realised that i love my country and im so patriotic until last night.

1998 theme song: Home - Kit Chan
Whenever I am feeling low
I look around me and I know
There's a place that will stay within me
Wherever I may choose to go
I will always recall the city
Know every street and shore
Sail down the river which brings us life
Winding through my Singapore

Chorus:
This is Home, truly
Where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me
Where that river always flows
This is home, surely
As my senses tell me
This is where I won't be alone
For this is where I know it's home
When there are troubles to go through
We'll find a way to start anew
There is comfort in the knowledge
That homes about its people too
So we'll build our dreams together
Just like we've done before
Just like the river which brings us life
There'll always be Singapore

Chorus(repeat 2X)
This is Home, truly
Where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me
Where that river always flows
This is home, surely
As my senses tell me
This is where I won't be alone
For this is where I know it's home
(For this is where I know, I'm HOME)

Oh, was (am) chatting with huimin and she reminded me something, something really classic actually! haha! IT'S THE TWO YEARS ANNIVERSARY THAT CHOOCHI HELD MY DEAREST FRIEND YUJIA'S HAND! Omg. Nothing will ever be as classic as this! Hey, i miss 4A, that bunch of crazy people. ):

I remember telling you guys, "hey, let's tell ang to book a room in swissotel next year". But it never happened cause ang abandoned us. Oh man, so much memories!

2007-08-07T22:06:00.000+10:00

Life sucks not only when your own relationship failed.
It is also painful to realise the relationship of people around you breaks down.

Hey, you called again.

2007-08-06T21:59:00.000+10:00

I've been thinking (X10000000000000) times.

Friend: "Hey, so how are things between you and him? I mean like, what happened?"
Sing Yen: "I've seriously got nothing to say. I've already done my best. There's nothing else i can do. HAHAHAHA (big laughter). Mr meltmelt is so much better man!"
Friend: "But hey, how about him? Im sure you still like or okay, don't say like, love him right?"
Sing Yen: " (pause) Definitely. It have dragged for two and a half years already. How can i not have feelings for him after such a long relationship."
Friend: " Sing Yen ah, Sing Yen. No matter what's your choice, i mean to forget about him or choose him in the end, we, ..., will definitely support any decision of yours!"
Sing Yen: " (speechless cause she didn't know that they're always behind her back supporting her)"

A conversation between friend and I last night.

He called last night again (not once but twice), but i was away from my phone.

Baby, you've got the remedy for my sickness.

2007-08-05T16:05:00.000+10:00

What can i do when there's only $98.56 in my bank? Hey, someone please sponser me! Im totally broke.

I unintentionally skipped church this afternoon. Okay, im supposed to take a nap after coming back from Victoria Market. But a nap became a sleep. I woke up 3 hours later instead of half an hour later. Singyen, you're such a genius. Gosh, no church = no choir prac. Damn it. How can i even qualify for next week's performance. Damnit and o m g (like how Dorcas and Melvin says).

There's a couple of things to accomplish at home since i didn't get my ass to church.
1) Finish Ferenheit 451 (hey, this book is addictive y'all).
2) Maths 2 tutorial
3) Accounting tutorial.

later.

2007-08-04T18:33:00.000+10:00

A saturday evening.

I bummed around home the enitre day. Read Ferenheit 451 , finished watching my korean drama (hong dao) and i attempted to study accounting.

How interesting.

Oh, jerk called just now. It's like one in a million chance that he actually takes the intiative to call. Anyway, i certainly can't be bothered about him anymore. Hello, it's a break up not a fixed back.
P.S. janyeonghuiwen, don't worry, i've been taking chill pills every now and then.

Give me back my blue days, I mean, my CJ days. Im starting to miss my company from t35 again.

Winter Wonderland at Seven (28/07/07)

Sigh, Singyen ah Singyen, what are you doing? Damnit, life sucks.

2007-08-03T22:21:00.000+10:00

It's Friday night.
She should be getting ready to go to lavish or seven but she isn't, cause the rest aren't going.
She wants to dance with mr meltmelt, but she know she couldn't.
She doesn't know what to do now.
She needs to study.
She feel like getting so wasted tonight, but she couldn't, cause she doesn't want her house to smell like puke.
She doesn't like the feeling of being weak again.
She wants her meltmelt now.

She feels like going home.

2007-08-03T15:05:00.000+10:00

Hello mr meltmelt,
hello shitass world,
hello emo freak,
bye you-know-who.

It's alright, i'm okay, i think God can explain.

Hate the feeling of being weak again. I always thought people will change over time and i thought things wouldn't come back to square one again. But no, people don't change, things are still the same and im still treated the same by the usual old you. So yes, don't even expect me to meet up you when i get back end of this year. You have no rights to ask me reflect on myself cause you yourself have not done so. Okay, take a chill pill and cheer up Singyen. Even though your meltmelt is not as goodlooking, you still have him.

Seven tonight. I swear im not going to touch 151 ever again. Even if i get wasted some day, the reason will definitely not because of you (effing jerk).

Anyway, to a friend of mine, i kinda miss your presence.

May i dance with you, mr meltmelt?

2007-08-02T22:54:00.000+10:00

Hey mr meltmelt!

Jasmine and I took neoprint today, haha!

2007-08-01T14:23:00.000+10:00

Bye month of July, hi to August and the new sum of $$ in my bank!
It have been fast. Four more months till the next time i see you-know-who. Hey, i miss you.

Anyway, Happy Birthday to a "friend" of mine.

It's wednesday, school ended early today.

It's the month of August now and Melbourne supposed to be in it's coldest period of time. But hey, hell no. Blame Global Warming for what it have done to the change in weather. How can we actually spot people wearing just a shirt around during the midst of winter? The sun is getting stronger each day just like Autumn and students are having their lunch at the courtyard outside union house. Spring is on its way, i guess. On hindsight, its something to be rejoiceful for!

later.

2007-07-31T15:44:00.000+10:00

It was just a moment ago that i said bye to Yond and Jas. And now, hi to my pukishsmelling home. Oh gosh, i got so wasted on Sunday night. 5 151 and 3 vodka shots knocked me out instantly. And yes, i had a hangover and skipped school yesterday.

Singyen's getting naughty.

"...well done jasmine, for getting pissed drunk on a sunday night.
now you can nurse your hangover right through hoi,maths and chem.
nevertheless, company (haoyu, melvin yond singyen and myself) was awesome. i cant believe we finished a bottle of 151. insanely stupid or brilliant genius you say..."
-quoted from Jasmine's blog.

2007-07-28T22:50:00.000+10:00

Wild me saw myself at Seven last night. Oh God, (i swear) it was one of worst day of my life. Sheesh. It was a night full of random people with random (or rather lousy) dance for me. Oh gosh, i wonder how can i face my classmates when the school week starts.

Anyway, simpsonsmovied with Jasmine and Malaysian Clan (no offence!) just now.
"Oh, your name is as pretty as your face..."
(haha)

Oh yes, woke up at 2pm this afternoon. Couchpotatoed till 4 then Jas and i decided to go out.

Another boring day.

I'm dying inside to hold you...

2007-07-25T22:25:00.000+10:00

Bad news from home: Brother needs an operation. I almost cried when he told me on msn. But hey, i (took Jan's advice) took a chill pill. Ah, so whatever.

Meow meow is sleeping on my desk now, Jas went out, leaving me all alone at home with cat. Im feeling tired, as usual. Nothing's new from the usual Sing Yen. Life's such a bore. Oh boy, i need you.

Anyway, went shopping in city today. Didn't get much stuff, but i saw something rather interesting. Heh heh.

SUPPORT THE TAMILS IN SRI LANKA, PEOPLE?

Hey, i really want to go home during September holidays cause i miss you-know-who.

2007-07-24T21:55:00.001+10:00

As i've promised earlier on, here are some of the highlights of my trip back to home/Singapore!

Lim and Shuwie who send me off! (:

2007-07-24T21:15:00.000+10:00

Oh gosh, dear me should be in church having BS now. Im such a sinner.

Oh well, Bell ended maths lect this afternoon. So yeah, school ended at 2.45 for me today. And there was a mass ponteng HOI lect going on after that. Haha. So, Jas, Yond, Haoyu, Dorcas, Dulcie (all ponners), Mel and I went out. Went to Collins, then flinders, fed square (where they almost got me vomitted on their face cause of the ~~bloody~~ swing) then Jas left and pancakeparlored with the rest for dinner.

Okay, as you can see (or rather read), my life's getting boringgggggggggggggggg. Expect for some stuff going on actually. Anyway, stupid brother (Chok Sing Ping) seems like he's enjoying Uni life in Perth now. Oh yes! Wanjun saw him in church and UWA! It's such a small world!

Aye, anyway, school's ending at 12.30 for me tomorrow. I want to have shopping spree before i get back to my study desk to mug and do my stupid essay. Argh. Life kinda sucks but im somehow getting used to the life in Melbourne again.

2007-07-21T01:20:00.001+10:00

I wonder if he reads my daily mail to him.
As words become lesser, will our relationship become silent?

2007-07-19T21:49:00.000+10:00

One day, there is a perfect couple who have perfect eyelids. Then one day, they have a child, but he doesn't have double eyelids. So the couple decided to circumcise their child. (like yes, put that skin on his eye) Then after one year, their son became cockeye.

WTFFFFFFFFFF. All thanks to Jan by the way.

So yes, i shall start.
"oh, i heard that someone got attached....." BLAH BLAH AND BLAH.
Seriously, i can't be bothered by such stuff anymore. Friends come and go, now i know which friendship is true and which are not.

Had a heart to heart talk to Jan just now (though i was talking most of the time). Reminiscencing the past almost saw myself crying infront of Jan. Oh well, life's goes on and people moves on.

Anyway, got back my math 1 results today. It was obviously lower than what i expected. But somehow, i've really got the motivation to do well this term. No matter how and somehow, i must get my conditional letter from Melbourne U. He's able! I know my God is able! HOI tutorial today was fun as usual.

It's Friday tomorrow. It's party night! (:

2007-07-18T16:37:00.000+10:00

Finally had a good rest after an afternoon nap for 2 hours. Not that i've not been sleeping these few days (actually i've been sleeping 8 hours almost every night), but just that there's so much things for me to be troubled for. Ah, just don't feel like talking about it now.

Okay, so yes, im once again back to Melbourne, back to this "familiar" place. No more unlimited cash and striking off all cabbing habits. It's 3.10 here yo, not 2.50 anymore. ):

Results are out. I've screwed up my exams totally. Bye bye Melbourne U and all my friends. It's a serious 99.9999999999999999999999999999% that i'll be joining Sing Ping at UWA. Oh well, it's time to pull up your socks Sing Yen! Yes, im definitely going to study hard and be really consistent this time. Two essays are due next month, i've got inspiration and motivation this time. Im going to be like all those JC students say, CM (=chao mugger).

2007-07-17T18:55:00.000+10:00

what's more is there to say than i miss you, love?

2007-07-12T01:37:00.000+10:00

Had prata and mee goreng for supper the other night with him. He reminded me the dreams that we used to make. It was just a few days ago that i was welcomed back home and now, 2 more days to bid goodbye to this familiar place once again. Soon, in 48 hours, i'll be on the plane back to Melbourne. I know, for sure, it wouldn't be the same feeling as the first time i left for Melbourne. I remembered how hard i held back my tears, showing Mum my determination to leave this unhappy place. But now, it is him who holds me back, again. 2 more days to be permanently single again, so does him. Anyway, on the brighter side, the process of counting down for the start of our relationship for the next holiday will start soon.

So yes, im back home, finally bought my adapter (yeah janessa yeong!) and im blogging. Got to meet up with clique and beloved 35, but not girlfriend though. ): OH YES, IM STILL GOING TO CURSE AND SWEAR AT THE FKING PERSON WHO STOLE MY CAMERA. OH PLEASE, JUST GO AND DIE. HOW DARE YOU STEAL MY LOVE. BASTARD/BITCH. Anyway, pics will be up soooooooooooon.

2007-07-08T20:43:00.000+10:00

7th july 2007,
we sat under the fireworks filled sky.

2007-07-05T01:21:00.001+10:00

Will you be true this time round?
you know that i've loved you all along.

2007-06-28T23:46:00.000+10:00

I've screwed it all up. That's the only thing i can comment on my exams. I called my mum the moment i walked out of Wilson Hall this morning after the accounting paper, and i broke down in front of Siyue and Jesica. Once again, i let my family down, espcially my mum. It's her birthday today. I thought my results will the best gift for her ever, but no, singyen, it's not at all, it will be the worst. Mum said she understands and it's prefectly fine. But no, not for me. I've screwed up my Os big time and now this. Singyen, when can you be successful for once? Not just in the form of academics but everything! Damn you singyen, i hate you!

Anyway, i was crying on my way to tram stop after the exam. Didn't really care much about it and went straight down to have my long lost retail therapy. Finally got to have yum cha!

Damn, i feel like studying now. Oh yes, time to pack my bag soon. I can't wait to hug mummy when i see her at the airport!

Boy, you're unreachable.

2007-06-26T12:53:00.000+10:00

EAP- over!
MATHS 1- over!
LITERATURE- over!
MATHS 2- shitass thing is tomorrow.
ACCOUNTING- can't wait for it!

Im feeling high now despite the fact that there's maths 2 exam tomorrow. Okay, TWO DOWN, THREE MORE TO GO! I seriously can't wait to go home. Yes yes, can't wait for tomorrow's paper to be over and at least i can relax for abit. Will be studying with Kristi for accounting tomorrow night. AHH, can't wait for accounting paper actually. I want my hard work to be paid off!

I've been seeing him around school lately (:

2007-06-23T18:46:00.000+10:00

10 MORE FREAKING DAYS!
I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE CLIQUE, T35 & GIRLFRIEND!
I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS ALL OF YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!
AHHHHH.

2007-06-22T21:14:00.000+10:00

Hello. I'm freaked out. Bye.

2007-06-21T10:08:00.000+10:00

Ups and downs to the peak and to the valleys, please don't let me doubt Your pressence, O Lord.

Exams are just in one day's time, yet, im still on my laptop blogging about what's going on my life. Current feelings just can't be expressed by words. Some stuff just kept borthering me. Forgive and forget, not only christians know about this. It have been 4 months ever since everthing have happened but i still can't fogive myself for doing such a stupid thing and forget about everything that have happened. Scars can only be seen to those who have been hurt.

I thought i could be happier when i'm here, but it doesn't seems so.

2007-06-19T18:29:00.000+10:00

Life sucks. Why must such a thing happened when i'm trying so hard to be strong. I don't want to get back to whom i used to be. I want a new start. STOP IT, WON'T YOU! Stop borthering about my life! Stop talking about me! Stop it, cause i hate it!

Oh Lord, walk me through the valley of life.

2007-06-18T15:00:00.000+10:00

HELLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
Im feeling bored. Im blogging at Leeper Library now.
THIS IS SO COOL.

"Sorry, I'm rambling. I didn't mean to say that..."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Im bored as you know.
Iris and Siyue are beside me now.
I dread to go for Literature tute. CLAUDIO? Grrrrrr. He's always mumbling to himself.

BYEEEEEEEEEEEE.

2007-06-18T01:57:00.000+10:00

MUGGER SPIRIT! (:

Can i have prata for supper NOW? ):
Shall Ahbay during accounting lect on tues. hahhahaha (not funny).

2007-06-16T13:14:00.000+10:00

Singyem, you should be excited about going home, you should not think about him anymore. Tell yourself that you will/can get R.

Oh well, baby dolce is sleeping on my lap and im having some mental disorder symptoms now.

Saturday, the big day. Time to go Vic Mark now baby!

2007-06-16T01:38:00.000+10:00

Jas just came into my room and told me about this website. Okay, it's the coolest website ever. I mean like, who ever know their family business has a website. Alright people, you guys should take a look at it! Haha. (Even though, it's really boring but heh, im proud of my dad.)

http://www.chaiming.com.sg/index.htm

Anyway, had dinner at lygon with Jas,Jan,Mel and Haoyu. We had fine dinning. Steak with red wine. Cost us almost 30 bucks each. Anyway, went over to Palmerston to find Mag, Sarah and Liteng. Oh oh, freaking monologue is OVER for me. Jack was the other examiner. Hope all things go smooth for me please.

I reckoned PSI was 150 today. Okay okay, it's actually just mist/fog.

Fine Dining

Five people you meet in Heaven

2007-06-14T11:36:00.001+10:00

A 9 degrees afternoon. Oh well. Getting bored with studying and so decided to blog. Heh, i've just realised that i've been faithfully blogging everyday despite the fact that exams are just round the corner. Oh well. Was talking to Jas before she left for school this morning. Ah, im kind of worried for exams now. Well, read through Lit exam question last night and i was kind of freaked out. Questions on March was really easy but blame me for being lazy. I seriously have no clue on about the book. The ones on Li yiyun was pretty much tougher. But aye, who cares, i understand the book so much more better. Anyway, yeah, exams are in hmmmmm, FREAKING EIGHT DAYS TIME. SCREAMS. Oh well, i've got to prepare my essay and mug my ass off for lit, practice a hell lot for both of my maths and understand my concepts for accounting. I NEED TUITION, DAMNIT. Anyway, there's nothing i can do for EAP. Ah, the excitement to go home is overpowering. I mean, i really really really wish i could buy a ticket and fly back to Singapore now! Yeah, NOW.

Okay, i was reading through my archives just now and i coincidentally read the post where i blogged about the first time i met Melvin. Okay, now that the fact that i know him much more better, he is way far apart from my dear ex-classmate, Kanta. Melvin is, ERR, how should i put it in words. So yes, one word, he's nice! My dearest girlfriend lehhhzsxszsz. Obviously he's nice! (:

Can't wait for Saturday to come! Accounting lect in the morning!

I miss both of you, Mum and SP.

Girlfriend, you too.

2007-06-13T18:58:00.000+10:00

"I don't mind chatting if you don't mind. I'm just saying that i don't need help, that's all, or at least there's nothing you can do for me, which isn't the same thing i suppose. But i don't mind chatting, telling you how badly i've screwed up my life, confessing, i supposed. I used to go to confession when i a small girl. I was a good catholic then - every week, forgive me father i stole some sweeties, forgive me father i put glue on my teacher's chair, forgive me father but i must be bad because stepfather says that it is my fault for what we've done together. Sorry, im rambling. I hate other's hard luck stories. It just came out. To tell you the truth, i'm still abit wasted......"

Damn you freaking monologue exam!

I'm feeling tired after eating like a cow today.
I have yet to do my 3hrs EAP essay which is due tomorrow. On the brighter side, it's thursday tomorrow! Yeah, HOI tute will definitely be an interesting one.

Singyen, enough for today. Time to study.

Oh oh, lit exam question is out already. Yeah, i should go to TCOLE now.

2007-06-12T23:10:00.000+10:00

The post-it which has "NO USING OF MSN, BLOGGER & FRIENDSTER" written on it is still sticked on my laptop. Oh well, Jasmine is right, Im a liar. I just couldn't resist to lay my hands on this cool/fussy/watsy/(and whatever it is) laptop. Okok, enough of my rubbish ramblings.

Today's definitely one of my most fruitful day in Melbourne. Oh well, not literally but spiritually. Im bearing fruits from the word of God! Haha. Okay. I actually just got home from BS. Went over to cgf earlier for Jiahui's math tuition with Mag. Ohoh and all thanks to the super smart Bowen for teaching me trigo too! Dinner at church satisfied my cravings for Krispy Kreme too! Today's BS message was about the four faithful servants of Paul. I seriously think that I've learn alot from what Pastor said tonight. Anyway, Shu Lin left ealier. She's flying back to SINGAPORE at 12 tonight. At that instance when she told me that she's flying back tonight, i almost cried. Well, i really miss home, that familiar smell, the familiar places and the company of family and friends. Anyway, Glen's leaving real soon too. Shu En flimed a video of Mag and i's farewell message for Glen. Aww, "i'll miss Glen's bullyings!" HAHA. Oh weeellll, WILLIAM IS GOING BACK ON 22ND! AHHHH (SCREAMS + SCREAMS). I MISS HOME, darn. ):

Okay okay, Singyen, RELAX.

OHOH.
I LOVE JANESSA YEONG HUIWEN AND JASMINE CHAN XUEWEI!
ZILLIONS, BILLIONS AND MILLIONS OF KISSES AND HEARTS FOR BOTH OF YOU! HAHA.
Okay, Jan bought me tarts from Brunetti. Apparently, the box, unopened, is still on the table in the living room. The box is just too pretty to be opened. And furthermore, i believed that i won't even bare to give a bite on those super (err, what's another word for pretty) AH, ANYWAY, I JUST CAN'T BEAR TO EAT IT LAH.
And JASMINE!!!! Thanks for your warm and fussy bedroom slippers!
I OWE BOTH OF YOU ONE (EACH)!
I was at church the other day and Shu Siang told me this chinese proverb.
"Zai jia kao fu mu, chu wai kao peng you." Yeah, now i really understand it.
I LOVE YOU SEXYBABES! I know, you guys will be there for me! (: CHEERIOS!

Im happy! DON'T WORRY!

Time to study Singyen!

OH, EXTRA INFO: I SAT BESIDE HIM DURING LECT! He was sniffing and coughing all the time. Okay, Singyen is tuning in to her Temporary Insane Mode (TIM). AHHHHH, ok, my heart-throbe!

2007-06-11T13:25:00.000+10:00

Monday afternoon,
eleventh day of the month,
Queen's birthday.
Just getting so bored with maths.
So, random pictures.

Celina's Party 19/5/07

Jan, Singyen, Mel, Jasmine, Celina, Ken

Jan, Sem

Mel!

Sem, Michelle, Jasmine, Singyen, Belle.

Rosemary's Party 20/5/07

Mary, Jasmine

Aza, Yond.

Carlton Gardens 25/5/07

St Kida's Beach 26/5/07

spot jasmine

sexy housemates (:

"how one longs, when in love, for a glimpse of the beloved" - March by Geraldine Brooks

emotional janessa

junk food from great eastern.

UNGLAM + baby dolce

2007-06-10T22:45:00.000+10:00

Crawling back to you - Backstreet Boys

Everybody knows that I was such a fool to ever let go of you
Baby I was wrong
Yeah I know I said we'd be better off alone
It was time that we moved on
I know I broke your heart, I didn't mean to break your heart
But baby here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

I know you're in there and you can make me wait
But I'm not gonna wait
It's the place that I can do, just to tell you face to face
I was lying to myself, now I'm dying in this hell
Girl I know you're mad, I can't blame you for being mad
But baby here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and now I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

If you could see these tears I'm crying
Touch these hands that can't stop shaking
Hear my heart that's barely beating
You will see a different man

But baby here I am
Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you (come on)
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in? (let me in)
I was running from the truth, now I'm crawling back to you

Banging on your front door (darling)
My pride spilled on the floor
I was running from the truth, now I'm crawling back to you, yeah
Now I'm crawling back to you
Crawling back to you
Crawling back to you
Crawling back to you

I can't get this song out of my head now.
I dreamt you last night. I always thought that loving you was a mistake, but no, not now. No matter what you've done, no matter how much you've hurt me, no matter how much i curse and swear about you, i don't know why, but i still ~~love~~ you. I tried to be strong, i tried to show you that i can live without you, but no, i failed. ~~I REALLY NEED YOU LIM JIA HAN~~. I really do. No matter what others say, ~~loving~~ you won't be a mistake. I'm sorry for such hair-standing message.

2007-06-10T01:42:00.000+10:00

I miss home.

How can turn back time?

2007-06-09T13:39:00.001+10:00

What exactly do you want to do? Friends forever? Who was the one who said there won't be friendship since love still exist. You never know how much i've gone through. Please don't do this to me anymore. Stop borthering me! I hate ~~(miss)~~ you! You're a fcking jerkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

20 more minutes to school, im still at home, not dressed up.
Shopping spree last night. Went to the gym with usual people till 3 plus. Anyway, life's such a bore.

2007-06-08T14:03:00.000+10:00

Oh gosh. Im seriously not a person who can keep something to myself. I think she found out. AHH. IM STUPID. Yeah, i am.

(Jasmine is talking like a duck in my room now. HAHA. She's currently trying to memorise her monologue.)

Okay, anyway, shrek 3 and gym tonight? I LOVE FRIDAYS COS IT'S CLEANING UP DAY! (:

2007-06-08T02:57:00.000+10:00

overpowering curiousity?
still soft, not hard.

IT'S FRIDAY BABY.
3am, still working hard on my accounting. Hey hey, work hard Singyen!

2007-06-07T11:31:00.000+10:00

I was studying for accounting and this song suddenly came into my head.

2007-06-07T01:42:00.000+10:00

Our photos are still kept at that usual place because you look good in it and not because you miss me.

AH, Singyen, NO EMOKID PLEASE! Alright. YAP WANJUN CALLED ME JUST NOW! Woots! Haha. It have been a superrrrrrrrrrrr long time since i last talked to her over the phone. Oh well, hope she's doing real fine in Perth now.

Okay, it's soon to be 2 o'clock now, so it means it's soon to be 12am over at Singapore. So, I shall announced it to the whole world. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACELYN SOONG! Hot babe, it have been ages since i saw/talked to you. Anyway, you're SEVENTEEEEEEN! OLD! Don't be sad ok. Haha. God bless yoooooooou! I hope you see this!

grass singyen

It's thursday! I LOVE THURSDAYS. Okay, not about stalking someone but yeah, thursdays are coooool! Haha. Two lessons in the afternoon only. Oh, school starts at 1.45 and ends at 5.15. SHIOK isn't it? Damn, a singlish. Lors,lahs and mehs are still intact with my speech (sad situation) ): .

Oh yes, Mag and i decided to go for main service and cgf on Sunday. Yes, church the entire day. But thank God, there's monday, it's a public holiday! It's Queen's birthday. Wahahahaha.

2007-06-06T14:16:00.000+10:00

TWENTYSIX MORE DAYS TO HOME!
(Tuning in to exam mode/damn)

First paper on 23, last on 28.

nerdtime.

2007-06-06T01:08:00.000+10:00

"But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you." (Matthew 6:17)

I know, my God will always be with me.

2007-06-04T21:01:00.000+10:00

Finally done with Hoi essay, now accounting, which is due tomorrow, damn it. Jas and Aza went over to ballieu to study. Today's the start of uni exams. Hope churchmates are doing fine! Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLIAM, MY "MOTHER" IN MELBOURNE (even when i know that you won't be seeing this)! Oh yes, mum's going to London to meet up with brother real soon. Damn, she will be touring around Europe! Im so jealous of her. She will be going VENICE alright! Damn it. The place is GOD-LIKE! HAHA. Okay, time to go bathe and start on my accounting essay already! Shitass.

The 56th time playing this song.
I keep dreaming that you'll be with me.

2007-06-03T23:45:00.000+10:00

Nickelback - Far Away

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

One my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Thank you Jan! (:

2007-06-03T10:15:00.001+10:00

It's a 10 degrees morning.

Baby, i still love you.
What can i do to have you back?

When darkness turns to light,
it ends tonight.

2007-06-02T09:44:00.000+10:00

A 4 mintues call back to Singapore to the usual person.

Singyen: "Hello."
The person: "Hello, who are you?"
Singyen: "Hello."
The person: "Hello, oh."
Singyen: "So what are you doing now? Are you free?"
The person: "Im watching television. Nope, im not free."
Singyen: "Watching tv so you're not free? Why can't you just treat me as a normal friend calling all the way from Australia?"
The person: "Yeah, i treat you as a normal friend."
Singyen: "So if your friend calls you all the way from a foreign land and you said you're busy because you're watching tv, don't you think you're really really rude?"
The person (speechless)
Singyen: "So what are you watching now?"
The person: "Tv lah. Ask so much for what. Im obviously watching tv right?"
Singyen: "Fuck, what the hell. Im obviously asking you what programme right?"
The person: "Oh, some Taiwan show on channel 8. Oh anyway, i need to bathe already."
Singyen (speechless)
PAUSE
PAUSE
The person: "Hello, hey, im telling you now that i need to bathe already!"
Singyen: "Fine, bye."

Is ignorance bliss?

Crying under my blanket is still my getaway.

He's a changed person, not the usual person that i used to be in love with.

2007-06-01T13:58:00.001+10:00

There are nights where i hide myself in bed and think about us.

2007-05-31T23:39:00.001+10:00

How are you?

everything means nothing, if i ain't got you.

It's winter tomorrow.

2007-05-30T13:20:00.000+10:00

damnit, hoi is due is two days' time.
damnit, my flu got worse.
damnit, i cried in front of jas and mel last night.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i feel like dying.

2007-05-29T15:38:00.000+10:00

i seriously feel like chopping off my nose now! it's freaking irritating! i swear today's weather is insane! gloomy, sunshine, windy, gloomy, rain! damnnnn it. it will be worse tomorrow. min 8 max 15. ahhhhh.

okay, time to do maths. I LOVE MATHS! (: gym-ing with jas later! hahah! AT SIX O'CLOCK! woots.

stingrayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

anyway, CLICK HERE. look at how cool this website is! HAHA. shitass, i don't want to get emotional!

2007-05-28T11:55:00.000+10:00

her cough makes her feel like dying.
she needs her antibiotics to keep her going.

she's hoi-ing.

2007-05-27T22:32:00.001+10:00

GABBY'S JINGBAOS TIME! WOOHOO. miss them so so so so much!

anyway, talked to joel last night! haha! the anything and whatever drinks are so WHATEVER and ANYTHING.

it's god-like stuff.
it's orgasmic.

damn.

2007-05-26T21:38:00.000+10:00

i started cursing and swearing (oh well, to myself) as i saw his msn nickname on my online contact list. damn it. i feel so awakward. actually, the feeling is just undescribable. we've not talk to each other for two weeks and i swear im not going to talk to him till the day when i get back to singapore. man, i feel so messed up. shit happens.

he's a ~~fcking~~ jerk.
don't assume that i hate him. alright, i don't. but i hate myself for being so naive.

stringray is out of my reach, but he's DEFINITELY BETTER (i guess).

2007-05-25T11:34:00.000+10:00

it's 13 degrees outside now. heater is on and here i am now at home. still feeling sick like shit. three quarters done for my eap eassay (which is due in SIX hours time) and im feeling bored. went on to friendster and i've just received a comment from joel.

"COME BACK NOW. MID YRS SUCK SHIT, IM SO GONNA FAIL PHYSICS WHICH IS IN FIVE HOURS TIME."

HAHA. today's the last day of term two but poor cjcians have to endure and go through their mid years.

so i went on to browse through the profiles of my beloved t35. shit, i miss them so much. i just can't wait to go back and meet up with them.

gabby, eunice, carmen, peimin, angeline, joel, philip, lester, alexandria, terrie, min hang, meita, clare, candice, letty, cynthia, terrence, geraldine and last but not least the chiongers (daryl, jonathan and yang yang) who are always not with us.

it's friday baby!

jas and jan suggested to watch sunrise tommorrow morning. woots!

2007-05-24T15:40:00.000+10:00

1.What do you think of the most when
you are alone?
- home? im homesiccccccck.

2. When it is a rainy night, what do
you do most of the time?
- on my electric blanket and lie on my bed. (:

3. When was the last time you were out?
- just now. went to swanston street to meet up with jolin and jesica for bloody drama

4. What do you do when you see a full
moon?
- PREETY.

5. Would you rather swim in the lake
or dive in the ocean?
- dive in the ocean like duh.

6. What would be the best partner of a
good cup of coffee?
- ?

7. If you'll ask yourself a question
now, what would it be?
- what the hell. this is getting real boring.

8. If certain things in your life will
fall apart, what will you do?
- cry....HAHA

9. What was the hardest decision you
made in your life so far?
- whether to come to trinity

10. When your friends forget you, what
will you do?
- thisisafckingstupidquestion.

11. Do you talk to yourself?
- yeah, sometimes. hahahaha.

12. Is there anything that you are
craving for right now?
- YEAH, MY STINGRAY PLEASE (:

13. Single or taken?
- single is great.

14.Ever cried for something stupid?
- uh huh.

15. Do you like anime?
- not my kind

16. How about Japanese music?
- depends. no jrock please.

17. What music are you into, anyway?
- sentimental and emotional songs. haha.

18. Do you have a malicious mind?
- yeah, sometimes, not that often! singyen is a gooodgalzsxszzz@hotmail.com (HAHA)

19. First thing you do after watching
a movie?
- talk to the person beside me (as in my friend)

20. Do you wash the dishes in your
house?
- yeahhhh! but not back at home.

21. Can you last two days without a
bath?
- oh, SICKSHIT.

22. Most common words in your
house.
- ? okay, vulgarities? HAHA.

23. The last lie you told your parents?
- ah, can't remember.

25. Still go to the mall with your
parents?
- yeah, long time ago. im not in singapore, mind you.

26. Are you brand conscious?
- somehow

27. Ever fell in-love?
- shitass. don't want to talk about it.

28. Who do you miss right now?
- stingray (:

29. Met that person recently?
- uh huhhhhhh.

30. Is it in you to kill someone?
- siao siao.

31. Daydream a lot?
- yup yup.

32. Happy with your life?
- yes, definitely.

33. You'd rather lose your mobile or
your mp3 player?
- mobile. i love my ipod video.

deep down,
sometimes,
i still love you.

shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiittttttttttttttttt.